Gammadoe (My Mom)

Where to begin...

Lane, your Gamma, my mom, has spent the past six years wishing, hoping, thinking, and praying about you. There is nothing in this world she wanted more than for you to be in it. She teased and dropped so many uncountable hints about how much she wanted you here and FAST.

 

 

She has decided to call you "Widdle Punkin." She will be your best friend growing up, I am sure of it. I can just see her pumping you full of ice cream, buying you all the Barbie's you can hold and watching your favorite movie a hundred times in a row just to know it verbatim. She will be there, FRONT ROW, at every dance recital, sport event, or school program standing up clapping and screaming "THAT'S MY GRAND-DAUGHTER!"

 

 

I know she is going to make such an amazing Grandma. Growing up, I have heard countless stories about her and her grandmas. All the fun she had and all the memories she has shared with me, I know are going to become a huge part in the way she is a grandma to you. I can just envision the days when you beg to go to your Gamma's house and cry as we pick you up because you do not want to leave. She always tells me about how she cannot wait to attend all of your Grandma adventures at school. Like Grandparents day, or tea time with Grandma. I know she'll be sitting there with a huge smile on her face, telling everyone to look at her granddaughter. She is already so proud of you and you can barely jibber-jabber! 

 

Growing up we did not have much, but what we did have was lots of love and memories. Your Gamma loved to record your aunt, uncle, and myself all day long with a video camera. She did not want to miss a THING. We have hours and hours of video tapes. Your gamma taught me to be independent, confident, and how to prove people wrong when they doubt my abilities. She and I have a very different relationship. She instilled such a strong sense of independence in me that I learned to make my own paths to follow. I hope you get some of that from me, I would love to raise you to be independent. I want you to be able to solve your own problems and not have to run to me for every little thing. My mom taught me very early how to be self-sufficient. I could do my own laundry, washing my own cereal bowl, and if I wanted something it was NEVER just given to me. I have never heard anyone ever use the word spoiled or the word brat to describe me and I have her to thank for that.

 

 

 

If your gamma could she would retire today just so she could baby sit you. She comes over during her lunchtime to see you. She never returns to work on time because she never wants to leave you. She calls me every weekend DYING to babysit you. She always says, "I know you have errands to run, or that you want to go get something to eat so just bring her over to me." She is so madly in love with you. I am shocked she has not asked to move into our spare bedroom so she can be with you all the time.

 

You should see her office at work. It is like a shrine of Lane! You probably have 15-20 pictures up in her office. She says she walks around the office at Hospice and says, "I got new pictures and videos to show everyone!" She is so proud and loves to show you off. She loves being your grandma. "Loves" is a understatement.